So I am at Siena and having a great time getting loaded up with homework and stressing out the first week haha. but thats me :)
So pretty much everyone uses My Space now and I am too retarded to figure it out haha and I have ZERO patience...so if anyone is willing to help me out it would be greatly appreciated!!
So I definately got in a fight with my brother tonight.... we talked on the phone for about 30 minutes and now he probably hates me. Ughhh this is so frustrating.... I just miss him was all I was trying to get across and he had to bring up stupid wedding shit that doesn't even matter anymore. I don't understand his thinking sometimes. But apparently everything is my fault for not being understanding and leaving Erin out... oh yea I apparently am a horrible sister-in-law.... but Erin is the one that doesn't talk to me...EVER!!!! She didn't say one word to me the night of rehearsal....but anyways I just wish we could go back about 6 years. I wish I could be 12 or 13 again when we were all so close and nobody was mad at anyone and things were great. I know this is wishful thinking and hoping for a lost cause, but I guess remembering the days when me and brother were close and could hang out is the only way I won't cry thinking about him........
Been talking to Jeff for a month and hung out 2 times....when he asks me to go on a date to see fireworks in Jackson with his friend and his friends girlfriend... I go we have a good time. However, I am a little quiet because I don't know them very well... I think that he thinks I am like that all the time... he doesn't even know me.....and yet he never called me back after the date...
so vacations are always fun.... anytime away from Hudson has to be a good time. Being on a trip with 3 guys however was quite interesting... guys are basically disgusting. No wonder I don't have a boyfriend.... lol Anyways... canoeing was awesome, best part of the trip... until we flipped over, we were completely in the water, the current took my shoes down the river (unretrievable), and I cut the shit out of my foot on some rocks....
Eh I will give more details if anyone is interested....
You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!
Ok so... absolutely nothing exciting has happened since the last time I updated! lets see.... Danny came to my house at 2 00 in the morning on Saturday night and watche Notting Hill with me.. I fell asleep for a breif moment (ok so like 30 minutes) haha it was 3 in the morning what was expected??? He left at 4 20 and I went to bed until 8 when I had to get up to babysit until Monday afternoon. It was cool though because it was for my niece Olivia and she is super cute... it was quality bonding time for me and her. My sister Katie came to stay until this morning. She had my new niece Megan with her.... who is like super super cute by the way!!! I got my hair cut tonight.... got more of the bang things like I had last time...still deciding if I like them or not...
ok...so... hung out with Jeff on Saturday night. It went alright I guess...we were with his friends (his friends girlfriend, Katie is super nice though).... but I don't really think there is anything there...at least I didn't feel it. Besides....he is too old lol. He will be 23 in November.... I was like wow you are either way too old or I am way too young (I think he is just old haha). Anyways...still not sure about this whole thing... he asked me to hang out again :S
So I thought of something today that made me laugh....
I remember when I was a freshman in high school Shelby Bright told me one day "Annie, you are not the kind of girl that guys date... you are the kind of girl that they marry"
I was reminded of this tonight at a certain point and I got a good laugh...
Well the wedding was a week ago. It was surprisingly well considering the tension and arguing since January. Erin doesn't talk to me and its really upsetting. We went to this bed and breakfast on the Thursday before the wedding and she said maybe 2 words to me, but thats pushing it. Then at rehearsal on Friday she did not say anything to me until I was leaving when she told me she would see me tomorrow. My sister Erin asked me after rehearsal at the church before we went to dinner if I felt like an outsider.... its sad because you shouldn't feel like that at your own brothers wedding!!! He barely talked to me at the church and its upsetting because me and him used to be really close and talk all the time and hang out and stuff and I have barely seen him in the past year unless its someones birthday or the entire family is getting together. I remember when he took me to buy my computer and it was just me and him all night. We went to Office Max to get it and then we went to Taco Bell to eat and then we went to Target and just walked around looking at stupid stuff... I miss those days when we could hang out and stuff.... and I fear that it will never be like that again :( I hate that my family is growing up and moving on. Why can't everything jsut stay the same?? But instead Katie lives almost 3 hours away.. I can't ever see my niece that is sick.. I can't see my nephew that lived with us for 5 years and is practically my little brother.. My brother hardly ever talks to me.. my new sister in law is a bitch.. and I am left at home with my mom and dad by myself... they were much easier to handle when everyone lived here.
Megan is in the hospital again.... she was running a fever and so they had to take her ot the emergency room... the third emergency room trip in 3 weeks. I really hope that she is going to be ok!! She has a leak in a different valve in her heart, so that means that the second heart surgery will be pushed up to 3 months old instead of 6 months. That means it will probably be in August or just around the time I am going back to school.... I don't know what my family would do if she doesn't do good... I think that would be the last straw after practically losing my brother to his in laws.
Well I have been talking to this guy from Addison for about 2 weeks. Met him at the festival at my church and he has called me about every other day or so since then....however whenever he asks if I want to hang out its always like hanging out with him and his friends?? He never asks to just hang out with me so I ovbiously made a great first impression.... ughh this is frustrating. I doubt that this is ever going to become something more than a few phone calls....
Ok so I have no great or exciting or uplifting news........ Maybe next time I update it will be better......
So I haven't updated in forever!!!!! Things are alright... I don't have much time between work and hanging out with friends...plus the wedding is this weekend...help me please.
I will update to let you know how the wedding went and if we are still speaking to each other and who didn't make it through haha
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